(Prologue) Monologue of the fallen harem protagonist?


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    –Where in the world did I go wrong?


    What did I do wrong??


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    “Damn …….”?


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    I still can’t forget the scene from that night.?


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    After confessing my feelings to my childhood friend Shiho, getting interrupted by Nakayama, and finally getting dumped, I headed to an empty place to be alone.?


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    Perhaps that place was a storeroom. In the shadow of a prefab shed that looked like a warehouse, I was nodding off, hiding myself.?


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    I was shocked that my childhood friend, my first love, had rejected me.?


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    I was also frustrated that the person I loved had been taken away from me by Nakayama, an ordinary man with no special qualities.?


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    I felt miserable.?


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    I wanted to heal myself as much as possible and I was left alone….. Fate is cruel.?


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    That’s when those guys came.?


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    The ones who came to avoid being seen were Shiho and Nakayama.?


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    They didn’t notice me.?


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    They probably only saw each other.?


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    The scene at that time was very shocking.?


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    Shiho was staring at Nakayama with a bright red face.?


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    She had always been expressionless, but now she looked like a maiden in love and was hugging Nakayama.?


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    Shiho could only see Nakayama.?


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    She used to be sensitive to the presence of others, she used to notice me wherever I was and look at me, but …… now, she was so absorbed in Nakayama that she could not perceive me hiding.?


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    And they were whispering their love to each other.?


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    Since there was a little distance between us, I could not hear what they were saying to each other. However, the word “love” was interspersed throughout their words, so they must have become lovers.?


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    As proof, Shiho kissed Nakayama on the cheek.?


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    I could not forget that scene even after hours had passed….?


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    “Why … why …… is it Nakayama?”?


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    A moaning voice leaks out. I am alone in my room, so I am not talking to anyone. This is just me talking to myself.?


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    The truth is, I wanted to scream.?


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    If I opened the window and raised my voice, I am sure it would be heard in Shiho’s room right in front of me.?


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    Her room is very close. It is only about a meter away from my window. So, if I wanted to see her, I could see her anytime I wanted to.?


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    I was closer to Shiho than anyone else.?


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    She was my childhood friend and the first person I fell in love with. I wanted to remain the person she loved for a long time to come…….!?


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    ‘I’m not good with you.’?


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    When Shiho said that to me, I didn’t know what was going on anymore.?


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    I can’t say it myself, but there are a lot of girls around me. So I guess I’m not the uncool one by any means.?


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    At least compared to Nakayama, there is no reason to lose.?


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    Nakayama is more ordinary and boring than me. There is nothing that Nakayama has that I don’t.?


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    So why ……??


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    “If Nakayama is good enough for you, why not me? Am I really that much of a loser? Shiho …… tell me, what am I missing …… damn it.”?


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    I don’t know what Nakayama has that I don’t.?


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    I don’t know why Nakayama is good and I am bad.?


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    ……I always thought I was just an average person.?


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    I have no special qualities, but there is nothing wrong with me, and I am proud that I am not someone to be disliked.?


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    As proof of this, there were many girls who became friends with me.?


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    Moreover, some of them even confessed their feelings to me. I thought I was not a bad person……!?


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    “I don’t get it anymore…….”?


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    Nodding, I close my eyes.?


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    My confidence is gone.?


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    I didn’t know how to treat the girls who talked to me.?


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    I was afraid that no matter what I said, they would hate me like Shiho does.?


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    Oh dear, …… what a despicable person I am.?


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    Because of Shiho, I will never be able to be confident in myself again.?


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    Huh, that’s boring.?


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    This is just like a mob character.?


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    It’s so stupid.?


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    I’m just me. I don’t want to be a mob character even if it kills me.?


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    I want to make him pay back.?


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    I want to show Nakayama, the guy who ridiculed me, that I can win.?


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    I want to show him how superior I am.?


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    I want to show him that people like me are not people to be made fun of by people like him.?


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    Someday, I want to somehow show him …… how it’s done.?


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    That’s what I strongly thought.